I'm dying.--

.Sunday, January 30, 2005 ' 1:40 PM Y

At last! Can anyone tell me how many hours later b4 i FINALLY get to write again. And the words are too big. Wadeva it is though.
[As the days passed i grew to have more feelings for her. It seemed that there was an uncontrollable desire to simply be able to talk to her. Even so, at the same time i was getting worried. Not so much on Psle, but on impressionism. And besides, I had to be able to get more opportunities to try and talk to her. So I took a very big risk.]
Do you guys remember that performance for teacher's day the " reach out for the stars 'etcetc? Well for some reason Amanda and that pr5 deputy head prefect who she doesn't like were in charge of it as well as um..can't remember. Sighz.
["Don't you think they ought to try go on Singapore Idol?" asked Amanda loudly on stage. Pleez man. She was reading from a script. Wonder whose great idea THAT was. Raja was managing things backstage but i was not doing my duty there b4 my performance at all. A little...distracted. When she came back she hit the Pr5 d.prefect again. I wonder how she didn't show her temper on stage. What an actress.
A day or two after the show, she was sitting down at th basketball court area doing some work while i thrashed Yile, tom and raj. When she went off,for some reason i followed her.
Here's the embarasiing part. Or another embarassing part. I asked for her EMAIL! And she actually added me! Wonder how miracles come true.
xx_graffiti_xx. Looks like I finally had it.
Literally. A day after trying to treat jun to a drink and failing miserably,which was a wednesday, cuz i remember chinesee last supplymentry, she walked past me with miss nice (that time i hadn;t started talking to her yet). Strange. It seemed that I knew it was going to happen.
Bryan of all ppl lent me his badminton racket 5 min later to play with the guys. I was totally engrossed in it that i did not notice her standing by. By the time I noticed her, she ha started....running off. I gave chase. I don't know why either. ]
Enough. It's getting too embarassing already. All I know is that I'm insignificant in her life. So what? Lile I said b4, no girl is worth it. Not up to that extent. Guess apologizing and pleading doesn't do well for her. She's not the forgiving type.
In a way I regret not being able to at least be Amanda's friend. She has already blocked me, and after i finally got my answer, which Miss nice so helpfully provided, I left her alone, deleting her contact. Guess by this year she will be gone from my mind...
Although she was responsible for me getting hooked on maroon 5 . *Grin boldly*
Peh. I guess I'm done. Farewell.
* Especially to Amanda Tan...if you cchoose to get here*