.Wednesday, January 19, 2005 ' 10:58 PM Y
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Yesterday i talked to miss nice. I don't know why I felt so unstable or hurt after talking to her...it's just that something seemed to change any feelings I had then. I realli hope I'm not losing control again. I also send my apologies to wei rong and I certainly hope he is not personally offended( i'm not gonna tell u guys why). Close enough. The sec 4 gangs will probably be picking a fight again wif us so I'll be on my heels for now. If anyone is getting bullied in sch (apart from bryan, which he probably will be anyway) then maybe i can help. I will be trying my best to go back most likely on Thursday or last resort friday (but unlikely, cuz I might be meeting up wif the trio) cuz it seems more teachers will be there this time. If anyone can meet me there it'll be fine. Sometimes I wonder if any period in pri sch has made me more sensitive t ppl's feeling...and also understanding my own. I 've realized that lately it seems there is something I regret for every test i do on ppl...and a little bit of shame too. I mean...when someone tries to draw out facts or truth abt somebody there is alwyys a downside. a sort of ....something tugging at your heart and letting it hit you...you could have hurt this person's feelings if he/she knew...and lately....it seems there's been a lot of guilt. It's something everyone shld think abt b4 taking action. I mean my test on (all of u knoe who), just cuz it was sucessful doesn't mean it made me happy. I mean, sure, to find out the truth but then again, sometimes the truth can hit you harder than a lie. Anyway, for my last note I just hope u guys understand me, and all the best to your schools. God bless! Luke Ho