.Friday, November 18, 2005 ' 1:43 PM Y
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Can't believe it.
Can't believe Junice cancelled her blog.
Can't believe that i missed the chance to see her today.
Can't believe Goblet of Fire was so boring.
OR maybe it might have been better if it had been more detailed, but still, boring.
Can't believe i overslept on tom's birhtday celebration, which is today.
Can't believe that westmall air conditioners were ALL ENTIRELY SHUT DOWN TODAY. It was burning.
Can't believe it. I'm bored.
again.
Nowadays i wonder, especially with all the free time I have ( or not so free time actually, but slightly better then being in sch)....why? Why didn't i try to talk to Jun in all those previous years? How does that make sense when..now. We're just not...well.
And I dont know what to buy for her. Maybe i shldn't buy anything. Becuz the only things i know how to buy are books, games and chocolates.
Seriously.
and cds.
Okay. fine.
and furthermore, how could i POSSIBLY BE INFATUATED WITH MY TEACHER?! Arrgh! Silly. Stupid. Not thinking straight.
Honestly.
Speaking of which nowadays? Age difference in marriage are kinda common. And all those stories in books and movies.
Infatuation is so common.
Take for example. In lord of the rings aragon and arwen. honestly. i don even wanna mention their age difference.
And Eragon and Arya. He's sixteen. she's a hundred. he sure wouldn't like her if she looked like an old hag..
But that's elves and humans. Maybe love actually does exist....maybe it's possible...that it can actually exist for me.
i don't know.
people my age? and even slightly older? teenagers. they're so ....easily manipulated. nobody. nobody knows what love is, what love means. you can say it and not mean it. it's just words. love is more then words.
a bond of trust and unity and faith....and all that. well. basically.
it's just saying it in a moment of impulse and puppy love perhaps.
why doesn't anyone my age understand that?
when you say i love you, can you mean it/?
can you show it?
maybe i have absolutely no idea how to show her I love her. but that isn't worse then not meaning what i say.
teenagers have to learn how to mean what they say when it come to love.
maybe you shouldn't get involved in it. not now.
maybe i shouldn;t get involved in it. not ever.
depressed.