.Monday, December 19, 2005 ' 9:38 PM Y
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I'm sorry. I wish she knew.
I was a big jerk yesterday, to my frens and to the gilr that i now love, i think now is the time to jsut be humble.
GOd can do anything....and i have to trust that no matter how painful it is...it will be over soon.
i can''t wait though.
i can't look at her and not feel guilt, pain, regret, love, hatred towards myself and her...
it is over.
amen.