.Tuesday, December 13, 2005 ' 11:30 PM Y
=x
Please resist the temptation......
Personally Luke. you're being stupid.
Well. maybe not.
Okay. Here's the deal. I said i would leave her alone. I promised i would leave her alone.
It's less then 2 days and i've broken it. smart. just smart.
i feel very guilty. and lousy. but that's...who i am. at last.
it's not as if she hasn't been trying to avoid me anyway. i'm not exactly asking her to marry me anyway. so ...well. all i can say is sheesh.
and i feel worse. and guilty. again.
'BERLIN WAR' keeps ringing in my head.
Sometimes i wonder...maybe if she shot me, it wouldn't be so bad.
maybe if she just told me to be the one to leave her alone.
if i can't do it for myself because i'm too conceited, would i do it for her?
would i leave her because she asks me to?
do i care for her mroe then myself?
i don't know. and knowing isn't gaining. not this time.
Just shoot me. I beg you.
I love you too much already.