.Tuesday, January 03, 2006 ' 4:42 PM Y
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He carried the gold trophy in his hands. It said ' Annual Jog-aton 2005 ....3rd place....(etc)'She stopped him."Is it your trophy?""Um...no. Subhas' one."" Did he win first place?""Um...no.""Who did?""Um...Luke."She was silent for a while. "Oh. Luke."And she said nothing more.He found this strange, so he figured she found out already. So he told.....Me. My name is Luke Ho.The 'L' in my name stands for many things. It can stand for my personality, my life, my friends, my actions, thoughts, desires, hopes( what i mean is the things in it.) . And it can stand for Love. Especially Love.Right now it stands for LIAR.I was sooooo sure! I really thought I had gotten over her already. It's more than a year!!Now i'm crazy over two girls who are older then me. Or maybe i'm just crazy. Why did i have such a hard time last year?Now everything from HIJACK to reality is flowing back to me. My emotions and flashbacks.And that sucks. What happens if I see Junice face to face again.Will I do something I'll regret?I have no idea. And i'm losing my mind. My sanity. I'm losing......me.Everytime my feeligns get in the way and make me a different person. And I pray. And i try all sorts of stuff and I wait. And i keep waiting. No answer.And I just give in.Just .....shoot me. And this time there are two guns which I would be willing to take.Righto. First day of school.
And after from how amazingly beautiful she looks when she smiles, i'm not gonna give you the details.
My life just sucks.
I need to talk to her so badly now!! Um. Don't ask which ' her.' Actually i think i mean both.
But I have to get this settled. Then I can.....give up.
And go back to my past.
All this is so beyond me.