.Monday, January 23, 2006 ' 9:56 PM Y
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Okay.
I totally had it.
Talk bt weak.
That is me.
I am so jealous of her!How often do you go dinner with youth ppl!
LEt's consider.
Apart from the fact I don't live at woodlands?
Apart from the fact that I'm totally not free?
Apart from the fact I'm not a super god loving person cuz I don't raise my hands up during service and sing for all the world to hear?! ( okay that is just cruel and mean so pretend I didn't say that. )
I'm not a girl?
I'm not popular?
And..um. OOkay.
No I can be like her. Great.
WHy am I me?
GUess theres a purpose.
But I am so jealous.
Where is the happiness in my life now?
God is right.
MEn have no patience. Seriously.
Although I am never going to be as happy.
But I'm not supposed to be...supposed to be glad for her..so much for all talk huh. =( sigh...just a little lie. just a fool. just not me. not someone. some ppl.
I choose my path. And I wonder whether it was right.
I know it's right.
Phew. I;ll never know. Whether I'll have everything I need.
OR do I already have it already>?
I am so blind.
But I just don;t listen.
someone tell me I am wrong. someone tell me popularitym, godliness and all that aren't the most important things in life. I''m just different.
A whole new type of person.
A new.
All I am.