.Sunday, January 22, 2006 ' 6:31 PM Y
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ookay.
had church today, cg all that. mostly fellowship and logo for ministry.
Not havinbg cg for another 2 weeks.
tired.
sad.
in fact, i think from this blog onwards i shall put my mood b4 writing so that ppl will try and sympathise. lolx.
anyway.
i had a really powerful flashback. last year. abt jeremy saying out loudly "why? do u lurrvvve her?"and I was so pissed after remembering this.
Still. Maybe she would have found out already.
I haven't done physics mindmap yet. Or Art.
But I studied history, math, and very little home ec. NEd to start studying already. Sigh..tests.
My feelings grow stronger everyday. BUt so does my will. I would love to depend on god without doing anything. IT's as if I am more than myself. More than all I am.
More than I.
FOR THOSE WHO UNDERSTAND
I killed him in HIJACK and unleashed his true memories. But it was going too fast, so i used my ability to read his emotions at those point of times.
Now I know why he hates me so. Why he can't accept people for who they are.
And I am ashamed I reacted with hostility to begin with.
When we told him he was so wasted....it...just wasn't nice.
Wasn't fair. And when he got amnesia, he became a hasbeen. HE suffered. But not half as much as I have.
Stil, the worst thing you can do is keep it to yourself. Eventually you have to let it out. But he didn;t, How sad.
I'll jsut point out I'm not talking bt my bro here.
Now back to usual stuff.
Yesterday's study group was ok. YEsterday's lunch was fantastic. THose who know me know what it was.
Atalia called yesterday asking bt st margeret's concert tickets. Hm. Wonder if justin and subahs wil go with me.
Hope no other fren has turned lesbian. i'm losing too many sane ppll already.
TIred from bball and sports.
Last thing. She talked to me in one two three piece words today but it was better than nothing. At least she made an effort. Then I totally blew it.
=( I'm sad. IT was totally my fault. I just....want to talkt to her again.
It will never be the same.
But it sure doesn;t hurt to try.
Well it will actually.
I guess now I can truthfully say..it's worth it.
And when I look back I can say "It was good while it lasted".
I hope....it lasts ..just a little longer....