.Wednesday, January 11, 2006 ' 8:36 PM Y
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Today..........
Seems so different from each day that I seemed to be living.
Got way too many flashbacks.
Okay. Ms ang had UPL, so she wasn't around, and then we had a crappy relieve teacher, and a very ahrd assignment that might be slightly easier had we more of ms ang's notes, and then it kept raining for basketball. Sheesh.
While i was playing, i was hit hard by a flashback.
'Ýou seem visually upset.'
And marcus whacked my bone on the left arm.
And then i remembered something else.
'She's what? 25-26 by now?''
I wonder how could I have forgotten someone telling me ms ang's age.
And then i wondered. And asked.
Why did I have to know anyway? Who's ....cares?
I'm not exactly going to marry her, am I ?
I guess this is the time where I truly deny my own personal happiness. I mean, I have to do it ANYWAY, but...
I know that I want everyone single person I love two things.
One, that if that person happens to be a girl that I love way more then i should, that i should wish and hope and pray that the person's happiness is fulfilled for the greater good of everything. And the guy who gets them will love them more then me.
I mean , the guy who gets angeline is really, really blessed.
And ximin.
And Junice.
And ..um. stop.
Secondly. That everyone I love goes to heaven. I'm still working on this one.
And then...i just kept remembering the stuff through pri sch, all the times where my friends stood by me when i needed it most, i won't give examples.
Oh yarh/ Someone pleez tell nat and palmer happy birthday.
And until i remembered a flashback from during the time in k2 i was upset that Jun wouldn't take much notice of me, and i asked aunty june , and she said....
''You will always have happiness in the Lord."
I don't actually know if that's from the Bible. But it gives me hope. ANd comfort.
And now i wonder again. And smile.
Just how much happiness have I been missing out on?
I guess it's time to make up for it.