.Friday, March 17, 2006 ' 12:14 PM Y
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Mood: Tense...slightly worried.
arrgh!! Infatuation depths are so...well. Many .And so stupid actually. Guys are so typical.
Honestly, I'm not a typical guy. Nobody can say that of me while meaning it...nor...well. something deep inside.
Today is the big match against SAS, the finals of the ISIBL, the last match I will be playing man to man, one on one.
THis is my last chance, to prove myself at last...as vice captain, and hopefully the ace of the team. No one's gonna beat me now...I think.
I really am starting to think I am a flirt. Am changing really fast....sometimes staying on like a die hard...just like b4....
Or switching very fast.
Or liking more than one....
Sigh..the loyalty and commitment is just not worth it...apparentely....but he says....
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28)
I'm ready...I hope.
Just need to overcome what has become the darkness that is me.....
I want to ...go home...
There's a longing for it I never imagined I would have...I missed...being what I was...instead o regretting being what I was...what I am...
When will I find out what I am?
When will I find out who I am?
I want to go home.I'm not waiting for the answer....Search for it.