.Tuesday, April 04, 2006 ' 8:45 PM Y
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Mood: Different.
Eminent disaster...
Yeesh. I apologize jun. Maybe i shouldn't mention stuff like that in future. It makes me feel bad after I realize you looked. =( You won't hold it against me right? mEh.z.
I hope not.
Phew..running short of cash lately...aha...I think some ppl gambling lately in sch...lolx. And stuff. Smoking has been cut dow a lot lately, but iguess people still do it cuz they're stupid and ignorant. Smoking is good for you health, as Jo Han would say sarcastically.
I always knew it, but she just brought it home again. I hate my Mum. Really. At least, sometimes, and lately. Why the hell does she think I run away from home for? Nobody asked her to be all considerate and understanding, blal bla bla. If she wanted to do that she could actually
care for my feelings. But noooo...in the end she has to be all responsible all bla bla bla bullshit crap I don't give a damn about.
I just can't imagine myself as the same individual as two years ago.
I guess what I would be doing now if I was still the same is probably not appear to have flirted with girls and dreamt about the next time I saw Junice again, and trying to think of when i was going to kick 6a's ass, or play a practical joke on ms tan since I was a graduate....but me now? Seems like change is getting to me.
I realise that if I was still in love with Jun that would be a grand record of 9 years, thanks. Although it's kinda right now i realise that's nothing much to say about. Yeesh. does anyone want to praise me for trying something i never realised what i was doing? What would I have done even if she loved me?
Which is not happening, anyway.
Why am I venting my anger on Jun? Apologies again. I'm kinda depressed. Though lately i always am. =(
I guess I shou;d forgive mum. Just worried that I would compeltely be like my parents. Hmm.
My studies is going boom again. I wonder why everytime after a peak in my life there is a super big drop. In future I will not celebrate when I have achieved good marks consitently. It only means trouble.
Reject me properly. Please. I can't give up unless you tell me to.
I wonder what he's trying to tell me. Not going to wait...
And chris? Hmm. My time is abt up.
Someone please give me a good reason to study hard, k? It would help.
Later.