.Wednesday, June 14, 2006 ' 9:59 PM Y
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Mood: Indifferent.
I was thirteen then. And still, every week there was someone, something previous to me I had to save.Maybe I was a hero, but only to myself. After all, no one knew what I had been doing. Did they?Tom knew. And Chris knew. Maybe Waik, but he would probably never understand it. As for the sub-consciousness of my allies...well. So much for them. I'm left all alone.A week later, I saw him again. I had not seen him in four years. Truly, I was stronger now, but he was still my senior, and far more experienced.He tried to sound gentle, and charismatic, but I was not taken in. It led to a bloodly fight, where once again, I lost. I was struggling against him.I still am.He turned away from me with a swish of his brown cloak, claiming how wasted I was.I wasn't sure if he had expected me to beat him.He led me to an empty room and showed me my flashback. Where I had condemned myself. Where I had chosen this path. This battle.But I was fighting. And losing. Why?A month later we fought what I thought would be the final battle, and it lasted weeks in my mind...destroying me inside out...but slowly, my emotions were overcome. My darkness was overcome.I won.I picked up his brown cloak. It turned dark blue and gold. My colour.I smiled. I put on the cloak and walked away.3 months later, I realized that I had lost.Today we played against Dunman high and won...barely. They were rough players...but wellz. Serves them right. :)
Weng Xiang stole all the glory as usual. * sighz jokingly*. I wish I had a bit more opportunity now though. Poor Marcus is worst of all though.
I'm been getting creepy dreams that I really don wanna think abt...it makes me feel like i did something wrong even though I didn't but then..it's really too much larh...and it's not even anything to do with ms ang, ximin or jun.
Thanks God.
Except it't not someone I expected. It's not even someone I have special feeling bt...
And that's why I feel more guilt.
Arrgh. .
Sigh.
Yeesh.