.Saturday, June 24, 2006 ' 10:47 PM Y
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Mood: Swing.
The system 'blog' is totally ironical.
A diary is meant to keep your innermost secrets and write bt the day...to yourself...and only after you die, then other ppl find it and see how interesting your life was.
For online blogs, anyone can see anything...so it's not logical toput in your innermost secrets in it, is it?
But this is good for one thing.
Confessions. and I have a lot to make...
Yesterday someone told me something so totally unexpected...it was not bad or anything......
But I ...just feel selfish.
When I've fallen for someone, I never care about how the other person feels. It's always been about me..
When it's your life...have you ever considered it not meant for you?
That's it's not yours...that it was given and you don't deserve it?
I don't know anymore.
And I just wanna say I'm sorry. To ximin and jun i guess. And probably...i know who I love now..
But I'm not saying...of cuz.....
As for ppl who actually like me, though i doubt u'd come here cuz there's hardly anyone who would actuallylike someone like mez...
yepyep..i'm sorry too...becuz everytime something like that actually happens...i totally blow it..
and i'm a horrible person to take advantage and lead you on...
I'm evil. so evil. and confessing helps..but the pain and the nightmares never truly go away..
it hurts...it hurts so much...and it kills my heart and soul....
i just wanna give it away...to the one who truly heals all..but lately....
i don...love..
forget it. it's hard to confess...
tomorrow can't stay long for cg...wahh! how sad. ah wellz. later.
too ..disturbed.