.Saturday, July 08, 2006 ' 11:31 AM Y
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Mood: stinks.
I'm not a coward!
I'm not hou lian!
And I'll PROVE IT.
...
Finally. Two days into camp, the dark figure came out of me.The brown cloak was gone.I told him I couldn't do this. That I would bite through hell and back to stop him from breaking what was left of me. As the day went on he kept appearing around Zuen. And then her. Something just triggered then....I ran up to him and released my Abomination...And it was over. Id lost again.This is me. This is all of me.Sometimes, people can never be what you think. They can be so much darker, harder, bitter than you can ever imagine, all hidden beneath a tiny smile, laughter..even a frown hides the most darkest of darkness. Now I'd wish I didn't have an identity again.Maybe this is all getting to me. I'm sick of everything. This is what was allowed to happen.
I don't give a damn.
Who on earth cares!! They're not doing me a f****** favour by doing
warm-up. What the hell is the damn problem?!?!
And I still haven't found out which a*****e said 11 for practice.
I said i got tuition at 11. Not happt isit. (i'm still grateful this is typed so i can censor)
Can't listen don't blame your loser of a captain.
this stinks. it's getting to a point where I'm not sad anymore. i'm just fed up and quite ready to fight again.
except haven't fought for a long time. so maybe should train first.
fighting is still fun.
more fun then getting yelled at and hit, and not retaliating.
just injured my finger on the punching bag.
great. cheap foreign imports nowadays.
sigh. i'm not ready to do this yet....
chen* yi xia larh.
I still hate chinese. but at least it's not vulgar.
later.