.Sunday, January 14, 2007 ' 8:29 PM Y
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Mood: ...
So how come nobody encourages me anymore?
Hmm. Maybe because I sure as hell don't encourage anyone without abosolutely wanting to.
New Town really sucks more than ever.
I've really isolated myself from the world. People either hate me, backstab me or dislike me to a certain extent. Let alone love me? Ahaha.
Hmm.
Life sure isn't worth living nowadays.
Let's face it. Worthless. Everything is so worthless.
Maybe it's just because I feel I've lost teacher to wee. I mean. What the hell.
Is there no one I can look for support now?
Screw that.
I'm damn tired. And I shouldn't be. I'm tired of feeling tired.
So I've decided. I don't trust my heart anymore. Nor anything or anyone.
I'm so sick of being trodded on. To choose not to love and be trodded on.
To choose to love and still be trodded on.
It's selfish, but I can probably easily say that I've never felt physically or emotionally comforted. At least. Not those which matter. My parents hug me, but most of the time they're the reason why I need a hug to begin with.
l.o.l.
pathetic.
so pathetic.
tomorrow's school.
just great.
and you give yourself away.with or without you.I can't live. with, or without you.ShadowFighterX