.Wednesday, January 31, 2007 ' 9:14 PM Y
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Mood: ..oh.
clarissa moved her blog again.
huhhuh. im really not a likeable person. 'wonder why'.
..let's see..
didn't have much to do..finished homework and decided i was too lazy to study...
so i slacked...caught a glimpse of a dvd on my table.
New Town vs SAS, final match. we lost that day, ISIBL. the beginning of the end for me.
namely my leg.
yeah well.
i got so many assists that day, so many points...
it is one-on-one after all. and in all modesty, i am the best at that.
clearly not helping a real team play though.
i guess what i really wanted is for everyone to count on me, not to call my name so that i would pass to them. to have them know, that i can make the shot, to have them know, that i can do it. that kind of faith makes sure that i can.
and maybe a little on the confidence thing.
i really don know when im going to ask for my ring back. maybe never. i can never truly be happy, because 'these accomplishments won't fill me..'
well. sad but true.
maybe i've been listening too much..to what teacher said, wee said...
i don wanna remember the past anymore. it's a psychological thing to feel abandoned. feelings do not make reality.
but im not a same person.
..it's different. complicated. gosh, i hate that..
to me, it's simply that they've forgotten me. that i might as well never have existed.
i guess im truly not good enough for anyone.
got so pissed off during recess.
at least show me a little respect. but no. huh. i've had it. what, just because i play during recess means you can? don't waste my time. if you must, at least have some manners.
of course, this is not directed at some people. but honestly. manners. really. ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find.
blah blah blah.
SAS just scored again. i look in my background, and my hair is terrible, and im praying the shot doesn't fall. so embarassing. im such a geek person like thing. no wonder im a girl repeller. huh.
math test got 18/20. so careless. in all fairness, could have gotten full marks. sakthi is a total math genius. how the heck does he do it?
at least my postion in math class is moving.
i have got to see whether im doing this because of ms ang or not. i cannot afford to be distracted anymore by my delusional feelings.
so emoti0nally stressed.
...how do i talk to her?ShadowFighterXNext week, training is on wednesday. got that, peeps?