.Monday, February 19, 2007 ' 5:10 PM Y
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mood: slightly..
off.
damn, life's a bitch sometimes.
anyway, visiting is pretty much over..hong baos coming in numerous..including belated birthday hong baos...yay...
should be a little happier right?
mm. haven't blogged since. mm. 3 days ago? mmhmm.
what happened?
letsee..
got new jersey which i can brag bt since it has my name on it...
um..getting a new bball from dad soon..that way i won't cling on to the team ball..and anyway, waik can show up for training on wed now...
hw all done..pretty much shld get round' to studying soon...
..mm. went yifeng's house yesterday and got a hongbao. pearly was there of course, otherwise i would't pester yifeng for much. ahahas. except maybe for his electric guitar.
toked a bit.
so is everyone going to know my deepest darkest secret now? ahahas. yeah well. im not a person with much to hide...
so anyway, what im really not happy bt is something 'silly' told me..
the big fat old silly, that my mei knows..
which for the record, there is nothing going on between me and pearly. huh.
..oh my gosh im so, so STUPID!
i know i promised not to say anything but i can't take it!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
..made quite a number of stupid mistakes in my life. especially associated with girls.
junice, i practically stalked her.
and probably ximin also.
yanlin i threw away the birthstone.
amanda tan..
hey that's one that's completely not my fault! yay!
okay back to it.
clarissa i probably pissed her off.
but this is the WORST.
well maybe stalking junice for almost 7 years was worst. but this one's pretty bad, all the same.
...maybe i didn't know quite how to be rational and 'cool' about my feelings. i never learnt how to do it. mm. cuz i was too busy dreaming about junice.
..so now that im learn-ed, ..NOW i can say OMGOSH.
how could i have been so stupid!?
actually i give advice to ppl like jj, and i used to matchmake a lot.
...so how come i broke all of the rules i set for others?
..damn hormones.
i cannot get over how stupid i was. and haha, if i end up apologizing...
i don't know what's going on...
something's happened in HIJACK.it's not jsut big. it's tragic. nobody knows who caused it.go see for yourself.but SFX is already on his way to stop.i know i am...you were there for me when i needed someone.
...i didn't want anything to happen. i didn't want to feel anything for you, to jeopardize our friendship. i ruined it all for us.
...i don't think you'll ever get to read this. but my attitude changing...it never actually did.
..i was just being indifferent.
now i understand.
...a little too late.
someday, I'm going to take a stroll down your life again, and when I do, it'll be much better then the first time...
ShadowFighterX