.Tuesday, February 27, 2007 ' 7:03 PM Y
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Mood: ..um.
mm. don't know what to say..
lately feel like im a pretty reserved person..feel like its so much harder to talk to people for some reason....
teacher on mc..no wonder i haven't seen her around..was slightly worried...
yeah well.
I noticedthat SFX becomes more and more focused on
1. fight scenes
2. overdone dramatic scenes
3. me
so basically, im rewriting most of it except for what really counts. a good warm up experience on novel writing i suppose. it is disappointing that i have to give it up, but at 13 i wasn;'t experienced enough to know what makes a story interesting. i only knew how to copy what i knew from...there...
yeah well no elaboration.
wonder if jun is still irritated with me..=(
i think it's really the cahoots with keith, pearl and i now..first he screwed up and now i did. im quite ashamed larh. but i don't know what i should have done at that time...because it seems either way i would have wanted the choice i made...
which is quite disappointing...
im worried. i really am.
lost and found found my math file...they gave it to zhou lao shi...he gave it to ms ang...i was so hoping she wouldn't find out! =( but she was really nice about it. =)
which is why i am so deeply infatuated with her. being pretty is just a side thing. ahahas.
Emblazoned in my mind...Still can't find my compo. supposed to type it out...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh........
PEIYI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ah well.
Cuz I...need time...My heart is numb has no feelingBut talking to Ms Ang was nice. =) Maybe i should lose my math file again. i hope. i hope...
Ms Pearl Huang helped talk me through my thoughts about the team...
Subhas is intent on me joining back...I just don't know...it's true, that he might get ahead of me...but once my seniors graduate..
who's to say he shouldn't get ahead of me? I may be aiming for the best, but he's made it this far..he's definetely sacrificed more...
But I just don't want to lose yet.Not now. not in this time...maybe when I become too old for this sport, or when I've beaten the best of the best in Singapore...
..he called me an all-rounder once. i wonder, is that the case...?
So while I'm still healingjust try...I've tried very hard...in every thing I do, to glorify God and not myself. To for once, not think about this for myself...but I wish God would fulfill this desire of mine...
I mean...it seems every thing i want never...
...junice...
fck. i can't think about her now. i mustn't. not even if i want to.
it's been too long trying to get over her. i can't, i won';t fall for her again...
shit.
To have a little patience...But there are still things I want to do...
Like
1. winning the cross country
2. being the no.1 bballer in singapore
3. coping academically
4. find a girl who i love with all my heart, soul, mind and strength and have a meaningful and lasting relationship...
5. baptism..in like..a few months time...
and thereafter, i have things to do. to accomplish. in this world, and other worlds, this is me.
my legacy.
I'm sick right now though, so getting round' to all these things could be a little hard.
Please pray for me. ;)
Anyway, lastly...
just recent results. not too bad i suppose...
Math Test 26/2: 23/25 (too many ppl got full marks...carelessness!!!!)
English CT Compo: 27/30 (yeah man, the best!!) (peiyi lost it. urrgh. =()
English CT 2 Compre: 40/50 (=)
Chinese Test; 32/70 (lowest..i think. urrgh. fail.)
SS: 10/13 (A1 for SS! considered not bad already ok.)
and thus forth. 4 a1's baby!
and one fail. =(
later then.
ShadowFighterX