.Saturday, March 10, 2007 ' 11:27 PM Y
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Mood: um.
okay feeling better now.
not much better, but definetely better enough to know i didn;'t mean it.
for goodness's sake, i expres my feelings in writing. half the things i say i don't mean.
well, except for wanting to be the No.1 player in sing, of cuz.
keith pissed me off today. don't know why. there was jsut something annoying about him...
for those of you who don't know keith, he's a generally quite gd and loyal church friend, but today he was being an asshole..
i mean 192cm is probably so overrated..
maybe shld ask subhas to check him out and go one-on-one with him first. then if 192 gets thrashed, i won't even bother challenging him.
yeah well. i've seen myself at my peak. like i said, all ineed to do is prove to myself im the best. no need to be an all-star and such. im sick of that.
although giving up on basketball team entirely, im still not so sure.
thinks*
went church today.
didn't do much. but got to see my mei after three whole weeks. she looks diff. somehow. hmm.
just imagining it maybe.
anyway, i think i must be a flirt.
otherwise i wouldn't start feeling weirdness and highness from random places. life is just not like that.
and i shall find a way to shoot consistently. that way, i can beat everybody when i feel like it. :)
pratice/determination/hard work
although balancing studies and bball is really hard...
poor subhas. hope his parents didn't get at him.
i know my parents got at me...
tiredness.
ben was noob the other day. couldn't handle sidney. i think i was pretty noob too. but still better.
losing to bei ji doesn;t help though,
i think i've challenged bei ji at least 6 times.
and only won once.
hmm.
hong kai has a worse record though.
ahahas. like if u compare me, hongkai, subhas, weng, and beiji.
beiji takes on subhas and has it easier because he has more strength.
but im faster than beiji by a lot, so i wear him out much faster than if subhas were to use physical strength against him.
naturally, subhas wears me out a lot faster using physical strength against me, because, while he is not faster, at least he has more than enough speed and stamina to keep up.
which makes things more fun. more challenging.
hongkai i dunno. ahahas.
but i fugre im improving now. shooting getting better, and im able to access my limit breaker more often. maybe if subhas and i become worse enemies, one day i can play my best against him?
but that day will not come. for him maybe. (subhas, don take offense, but u and i do quarrel, and u tend to like to vend ur anger on me. i mean obviously i respect you. buh hah>? take ur own advice dude. i know im taking it.) ;) at least from now on, anyway.
and happy birthday! oh yeah. going ur house tomorrow. or ur uncle's place. whatver. woohoo!
..but im quite amazed at my peak performance.
oh god, please help me play like that on a constant basis.
bball forever!
..
and hoping the feelings go away.
cuz i wil leither eat a lot, drink a lot, or do something rash when im depressed.
urgh.
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