.Tuesday, March 06, 2007 ' 11:35 PM Y
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Mood: ...
yeah it's a been quite a whirlwind...
still trying to get to the bottom of what i've called the limit-breaker
which sound too much like FFVII according to tom, but I still think it sounds cool.
anyway...
my legs are slowly recovering! yay!
except i don;t think they'll recover in time for tomorrow...
think i'll pon training larh..i have something to do...
now that i'm injured...and studies are moving slower (incidentally, my marks are dropping..haiz...) i have time to think....
about what on earth is happening in HIJACK...
about the attacks in my head...
about when i'm going to finish my novel...
about being happy i beat hong kai this morning! ahahas...
about being irritated at weng weng for being so zun today...
i realized something, during the numerous matches with hongkai, is that he knows how to play intense defense. he must have started from quite some time ago..two years maybe? i've barely even tried for more then 5 minutes. but he lasted the whole match we played. (grudge match, loss, 6-7) ..interesting. intense defense is more consistent then intense offense, no matter how good i am at it, so even when i win i lose. if i can't shoot for some reason, game over, isn't it? subhas also knows intense defense...
practicing new defense technique...it's like, specifically for taller and bigger centres..i'm so going to try it out..it's going to raise my performance level another notch! yeah hah!
although im surprised i didn't even try it so long ago. :(
so stuff yesterday.
ms ang got pissed at me becuz i forgot that stupid parent's form thing and she made me sad cuz i hate to disappoint her. stupid hormones. i tell you, i've got enough problems already. i cannot deal with a almost two-year on and off infatuation with my form teacher.
chinese, im embarassed. as usual. evil zho lao shi. he pretends to be a good guy only. grr.
english ppl have to copy my summary. =)
played a little bball despite my injuries and it felt like hell. not smart. but i exercised some of the muscle aches and they're back to normal. monday night is uneventful. no talkin g to girls. tsk.
today ms ang was not pissed at me.
i'm just feeling weird today....
someone got beaten up by a gang in front of me..i did nothing to help him..i couldn't...
they beat the guy up right in front of mr tan say pin. useless. the school is unreliable. some things, you just have to handle yourself. but i feel weaker. and scared. i haven't..taken action in so long.
..so angry, so confused about the events elsewhere, so depressed...i think even ms ang noticed. anyone would have. so stressed i fell asleep in chem class. everything just wears me out.
..didn't do homework today even though nd to pass up tomorrow..what's wrong with me? i got no will to do anything...i'm just so upset over everything lately...
feel like a flirt...even though i know im not...people don't know the real reason why it's so easy for me to get crushes...but then again.
i FEEL, like a flirt. recently.
and those feelings are just so fucked up.
there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surfaceconsuming...confusing...talke to qi hui today night..told her what she wanted to know...i'm just glad things worked out well lah...it was a silly thing, nothing more. and to think that madeline actually brought about someone who's really nice. a first.
jj's so gonna bother me about it...
..mm. she asked me if i liked...opps. she said not to say. arrgh. so close.
but she was wrong larh. =)
although i wouldn;t mind being clsoer friends? ;)
oh YAH. and she said i was good at FLIRTING! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
see? more proof.
obviously, im lousy at flirting, but that's beside the point.
otherwise junice might be wrapped around my little finger.
although knowing me, i'm probably already wrapped around hers.
which is not a smart thing to say.
jun, don't take that to heart k? ;)
btw jun, your tagboard is not working. for me, anyway. i tagged several times and it all never got through.
gtg, mum is being apest.
later.
ShadowFighterX
do me a favour and don't ask me what's wrong..even if i knew i couldn't tell you...not that i don't want to. i just can;t.
the scars just go so deep.