.Wednesday, March 14, 2007 ' 10:17 AM Y
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Mood: .....
lately have been coping with some things emotionally...
some things that have compelled me to be quite an asshole...
somethings that have made me drink an exceedingly huge number of soft drinks...
some things that have made me stay at home and do nothing..just wondering. just wondering.
..and the truth is that I've finally reached a point in life where I'm struggling between infatuation and love.
sometimes, no matter what happens in your mind, it never happens here. it just can't. it's not real. so no matter how it goes...reality is all that counts. even if you knew what would happen if it didn't.
so that pretty much crushed me. im not going to say exactly what tho'. hmm.
i still feel like quite a jerk.
anyway. i can't walk. i suppose that is my punishment. for like. not doing anythingg. and stuff.
..I saw you die.Although I'll admit that not being able to walk twice in two weeks is really annoying.
it happened during a one-on-one with hong kai..don't know why i was so tired so easily..
then i was doing a jump shot..foul in! but my leg landed on his..then my whole body collapsed on one side...
my leftt ankle is so swollen right now.
it kept getting worse and worse, eventually, ms william helped me numb the pain a while, huan wei carried me to the porch. then i called mrs ang and she was going to help me call a cab...but then huan wei say need to save money or something..ahahas...
but in the end, jun wei carried me outside the school. then huan wei carried me across the road where we got a cab..
thanks peeps. :)
was pretty angry and pissed after that...i mean, i coudln't walk again. and today, as im writing this, i still can't walk. huh. i don't know when im going to recover.
so i was cursing and swearing as usual. and val calls and i have to tell her bt my injury..i guess i can't play on sunday. or thursday for that matter.
mm. later in the day talked to guoyi..still pretty pissed, but she helped to cheer me up a little..thanks.. :)
so today im pretty determined to recover as fast as possible, build up my stamina again and beat hong kai. in all honesty, not to sound proud but im guessing it's pretty true..
if my stamina wasn't as crappy as it is now, i'd be one whole level over hongkai..one-on-one wise my defence has immensely improved..who knows, i might even be going a level over like..joshua or subhas? although diff. ppl is diff. hmm.
but the thing is, when the bball team thrashed me, nick, bei ji and ben that day, i realized something. no matter how great i become or am becoming at one on one, no matter how much i learn how to control my peak so i can' be the No.1 in singapore, team-wise, ..it's not helping that much..
maybe i still have things to think about..and while im crippled, i pretty much have time to think.
maybe the time to write my testimony...write my novel...
study a little? ha.
in the meantime, hope u guys will pray for me to recover as soon as possible. i'll be back on the court in no time!
and im so going to kick ass.
later.
ShadowFighterX