.Wednesday, April 11, 2007 ' 8:44 PM Y
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Mood: Blessed?
MM..
Argh. physics test tomorrow. didn't feel like studying much.
went tom's house to study. did my usual thing, wait for someone to help me open the door and then break into his apartment. no sweat man.
lessons were boring, so i won't elaborate except for lit. cuz i was really fascinated by ms huang's knowledge of philosophy and her definitions. not that i'll ever tell her that, of cuz.
oh and i think i screwe up a lot of tests this week.
so my mid years are soooo close!!
must start mugging, but frankly speaking, i don't think i can do it.
god, help me.
so anyway, why im feeling blessed.
ben almost backed out. of cuz, if he had i would have considered my victory and probably hit him or something. or just the bowing down in forgiveness thing will do.
i was so pissed i could barely concentrate.
in fact, i think i snubbed the girls today! ahhhhhhhh. hope they don't think im all mean and stuff.
madeline was very fascinated by my story of mr bean's holiday.
to be honest, i think i really don't mind sitting with her now. i mean she has lots of mood swings, but so do i? she'll still human, so i finally (finally) accept her for who she is.
hope she doesn;t find out.
guo yi is okay now. :) i think.
ying yun called me today to talk a little..random stuff, as usual.
Tomorrow i guess i'll be studying physics while watching her play piano.
mm.
then at tom's place i studied a while and finished all my work cuz tom and jamie were watching heroes and decided to deprive me. :( mean friends. lolz.
mm.
then after a lot of argueing and childish stuff, went down for bball..
i probably owned them both at bball.
and..
mm.
became all sentimental and stuff.
i was looking out at the pool, and i could see memories reflected in the pool.
great times. happy times.
im getting my memory back, piece by piece, slowly..
and i thought about my anger with ben, and how his players couldn't make it.
when i realized something.
im so blessed.
i mean i am the suayest guy when it comes to a bgr thing, but...
I have a family who loves me a lot..
and friends who're willing to do so much for me. who care for me, who know my needs, who try to sympathize even when they know they can't.
they're there for me..
adrian moved out yesterday. im really going to miss him. cried a little. ..:(
but it's him, tom, waik, subhas, pam, pearly, ida, nat..
etc.
etc.
etc.
oh god, i have so many true friends.
and i'm really grateful.
what saddens me the most.
is that this has never been the kind of companionship i desire for the most.
what i really regret about falling in love..is that im never able to appreciate anything else...that doesn't feel as good as being in love..
as being loved in that way.
..but these guys love me.
and i love them, so, so much.
thank you all so much. :)
so i was all mushied up looking at how beautiful it is at night. it really is. i think people who keep themselves studying or at lan parties at night can never appreciate how beautiful it is.
....when jamie decided to pour extremely cold water down my back.
that's friendship. lolz.
later.
Luke Ho
(my physics test tomorrow is SCREWED!)
pray for me kays? ahahas.
i'll be praying for you. :)
Single and available! ;)