.Friday, April 06, 2007 ' 12:25 AM Y
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Mood: ..huh...
blogging again since i clearly have nothing better to do with my time.
12.25 am ONLY.
girls are complicated.
i feel as if i've said this line many many times. but im sure girls don't like being reminded.
that would be plain mean./
tomorrow got gd friday service..
some ppl really have to relax..
joey's playing resident evil 4..which is so much better than outbreak, cuz not only was it one player but it SUCKED.
and i have been ever so helpful with my expertise, of cuz. :)
had dreams like. 6 days in a row.
that's wrong, that's just so wrong. each dream is emblazoned in my mind the moment i am reminded of it...
this time, it was pretty...well. not pretty. a rape, some sort of temple like thing where some guy with knives tries to stab me and i react instinctively. at least, i don't feel totally useless..
it's interesting, because having the fear under these conditions is actually a simulation by one's own mind..something i was generally in control of...until now.
..would have told you, but i feel not only darker and a lot more moody lately...
but also that ..
well screw the devil, for one thing. and all hell.
it's just a step along the way.
im going to be devout. so there.
which is why i feel so much darker?
...huh.
being lonely has it's toll.
being blur is innocence.
so i would have said that i loved you, but i said it already.
and that i really never gave up on getting over her, but...
maybe you were right.
huh. i'll never know what exactly love is.
but i know it well enough that it isn't love in your case.
The rose, with it's beauty and thorns..
...seems a lot like you.
im okay with giving up, i suppose. im used to it.
the last thing is that...
is this how we say goodbye?Darkness overwhelming...
Confidence=Love=Intimacy
well, close enough.
thanks j.
later.