.Tuesday, April 17, 2007 ' 7:26 PM Y
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Mood: ...
To Subhas
From yours truly.
Asking for that one on one was not to mock anyone. Moreover, it was to prove my mental state of mind is no longer ready for things like official competitions. the pressure, the downsides, just aren;'t worth it. and by the match today, I think I pretty much proved I haven't lost my skill. just my stamina. among other things.
truth is, are you happy?
you asked me today, and told me a whole bunch of things to go with it.
I've always encouraged your basketball, you skill, your physique, is so much better than I have or ever will have eventually.
but what u told me today.
makes sense to you, doesn;'t it?
..anyway. ..
another time.
Luke.
Went to Woodlands yesterday, I swear rach is going to kill me./
which is why im so grateful for the fact she hasn't found out yet.
spent the day with pearl, playing bball and such.
mm. really miss her.
she's very torn up right now..moreover, I know just how painful that is.
I'd rather she not hurt herself..rather, that she settles what she needs to in her heart...
even if she doesnt choose me.
does she know it won't hurt?
does she know that seeing her smile, or hearing her voice when she's happy is more than enough already?
I don't know. ..if she chooses him, it's not as if she'll get him, and she knows it.
..i hate to see her miserable..
haiz.
what to do?
...
..on to other things i guess. not much i can do now.
met jan on the mrt station yesterday. had a meaningful talk, which im quite grateful for.*
(jan is my previous cg leader)
she was heading to westmall..explained a lot of things to me.
mm. lolz. she found it quite suay for me, since she got a chance to corner me. ahahs.
keith is not realy happy with me right now.
i tot he'd be supportive, since he asked me to go for it..
but he still..
i don't know. haiz.
im not insecure. im not. seriously.
just lots and lots of homwork and an especially hard test tomorrow. no big deal.
i tell you, i am getting infuriated.
please pray, everyone!
prayer is strong. :)
anywa congrats to tom on his whatever. hope monday went well.
..oh ya, what the HECK am i going to do abt friday without tom?!
still haven't discused!
...
ah.
crap.
Well, life goes on.
I'm happier while it lasts.