.Monday, April 23, 2007 ' 6:46 PM Y
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Mood: ..sigh.
guilty.
well, obviously not bt ben.
that guy actually waited until 6 o clock! what a total MORON!
AHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SWEET REVENGE BABY.
then something happened that i did not expect.
sigh.
bei ji was really mad at me. jsutin and jerome and nick, a bit disappointed in me. why? i told them.
then i realized, i didn't tell bei ji. he got in trouble with his parents. he ponned something for the match, and i didn;'t show up.
he must have been very insulted.
sigh..
he hit me. twice. i didn't even retort back. my legs were shivering.
why would i fight back? i was totally in the wrong.
so anyway..hope he's not pissed.
in class, i almost cried..think that i've been guilty of hurting my friends enough already..
wee once told me, 'this is not the way you do things, it's not how it works'
for me, i've always loved bending the rules of life..because i know i can, i'm brave enough, reckles enough, and more often than not i pull it off, or i pull through, with the help of my friends of cuz.
..but i guess sometimes..these things hurt people that i never realise. wee was a victim of my misactions. so now i've lost him?
everyone sang happy birthday for him..quite a great contrast to my birthday..ahahas..
wee will be wee..
and I will be me..
being the no.1 has given me a sense of power..that i wish i hadn't defined.
tom brought up some things yesterday..some things that left me thinking..that made me remember, that I have a duty, a untapped power that i have to use everyday.
that more people need me than i realise. no matter what happens, i know i have my friends and family. well more my friends, since they know exactly what it is..
i need to fall back on more than just that..
tomorrow, i got to get back in shape for basketball..no matter how depressed i was b4, it's all over..i don have an excuse to torture myself or make myself a lousy player..
im going to be singapore's no. 1.
*started writing again! english practice. ;)
*bei ji was really angry...god, i feel really bad..
ShadowFighterX
god, please forgive me.