.Friday, May 04, 2007 ' 7:08 PM Y
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Mood: Huh..
mm. let's see..
haven't updated in a couple of days..
wednesday not much to say.
thurs=day is a different story.
more people know. errgh.
taught qi hui the life partner 10 girls 5 fuys or 10 guys five girls game. she was so ecstatic bt it. how entertaining. lolz.
pretty interesting and fun..
got to socialize a bit, i guess.
which im really grateful for..
thanks wilson for the ss notes..
helped me quite a bit today..
gavin;s not a bad guy.
mm.
i guess socializing isn;t turning out as bad as i thought it would be.
clearly i have issues.
and yeah, i think i crossed the line yesterday.
as in. im taking it seriously..
i don't remember how to cope with emotions like this.
or know how to, at any rate.
im just so scared to screw up.;
really, i care for her a whole lot more than i should.
i sure don't show it..but...
i just want her to know, if she knows how i feel about her...
that i really want her to know that not every guy's going to hurt her the way they did..
because no one is going to care about her the way i do.
i hope i know what im doing.
un-known, i swear if u say anything..
anyway.
dreamt abt ying yun on wed! ahhhhh.
it was just a dream.
but so um. not. um. usual.
not usual.
unusual.
not a bad dream. but not an expected one.
wahh. she kept pestering me..
shld not have told her bt it. bleah. :)
today papers were okay la.
hope i do well.
please pray for me and exams and stuff.
cuz i'll be praying for you too!
played with waikeat..didn't exactly give 100% but he's getting better la. showed him a couple of moves which i hope he practices..
i don't think..
i can play subhas or waikeat the way i do weng siang or hong kai. especially hongkai.
or that day against mr ang..
or beiji...
or shawn and lewis..
or even benjamin.
there's just some sort of fire waiting to be ignited..
i've seen my best..it's more than i can imagine.
it's creeping into my soul.
corrupting me. the raw power in my body and mind.
especially the mind.
..unrealized possibility.
..subconscious.
HIJACK.
..where are these dreams coming from? is this something else i have to do...?
I better get off now. bleah. eat dinner..
Beauty and thorns...I won't hurt you. ever. god. i better not get more emo than i already am.