.Sunday, May 13, 2007 ' 8:34 PM Y
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Mood: Whew.
Sleep is goooood.
As in seriously. you wake up the next morning from immense anger and hurt in your heart and you feel perfectly all right.
I know that's not going to work forever...
ahhhhhhhh well. im feeling a little better.
sort of.
i dunno..i don't feel like getting attached anymore, so..
there are three ways for me to relieve anger and hurt.
1. Drink, a lot, a lot of soft drinks. Maybe in future it'll be alcohol.
2. eat. a lot. of the same thing.
3. sleep. cry. talk to someone. all at once.
okay 4.
4. doing some incredibly reckless and stupid things.
praying really..takes a much longer time than it should...
did solution 4.
sometimes it takes more than one solution.
sleep.
is :)
whee.
blood. and nightmares yesterday.
i really have far too much free time.
and solution no,1 is not helping my basketball.
ah well. im a naturally addictive person. everyone knows by now.
im becoming kinda bored..
talking to myself..
it's not my fault i don wanna be alone more than anything else in this world.
on the bright side.
i actually look good now. :)
well, a lot better than up to 4 years ago.
ahhhhhhhh.
life is perking up on everything except my non existent gf.
and maybe my studies.
so im grateful for now la. yepyep. ;)
im still a little resentful at god, but i think i'll get over that.
especially since now im getting the chance to help people worse off.
tom. waik.
jamiejamie.
and the others.
don't worry bt me yet k? :)
not yet.
..I still have a job to do..it's all..
in the mind.