.Tuesday, May 08, 2007 ' 7:28 PM Y
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Mood: ...confused.
..the very mature one...(LOL)
asked who i took seriously..
and i stopped thinking about it already..
but i can't help but ask myself..
whether im just deluding myself in obsession..
in hurt.
in pain.
the after effect of the torrential events of my life..
im really upset with this certain girl. well. not so much upset as disappointed.
it's nott even either of the SM's, who seem to dislike every bit as much anyway,..
the whole shimin hendrick thing...i mean, how on earth did i ever get involved in the first place?
so if i believed a lie then obviously it must be my fault la!
that every damn thing has to be my fault la.
for you to be happy?
this thing. that thing. even that guy.
and the whole thing with wee.
i mean, must i be wrong for her to be happy with my attitude?!
im just really disappointed. so much for friendship. but then again lately more often that not my old friends turn out to be like that, or change to be like that.
that girl..
is nice but gullible.
so gullible.
believe all her lies. i don't care. im disappointed and hurt by you already.
because if you think i broke up shimin and hendrick, that's your problem.
i don't even know the kid, let alone care about him.
he lied to me, she lied to me. it doesn't matter.
but do not put this on me. do not. put this on me. i've had enough things put on me already.
practically, they broke each other up.
he lied to me so he could find reason to break up with her.
she? she's been lying to me the whole time anyway, and she sure doesn't know what love is, so why get into a relationship?
god. don't waste my time.
it doesn't matter.
hope jamie's okay. she sounds really tired and stuff.
as for everyone who's mugging for exams...
3 days to go!
lets end this.
ah well.
a lot of peeps, apart from me, have also fallen sick during exam period...please pray for them, i will too. lolz.
ahhhhhhhhhh.
physically sick.
and emotionally heart-torn.
mushy again.
mm.
shuk yee told me i'd get heart broken.
i don't know..
but it sure seems that way, doesn't it?
i don't wanna know.
i don't wanna care.
please don't break my heart if i give it to you.
just don't.
i barely have any of it left...is this fated in my destiny?