.Saturday, September 15, 2007 ' 10:40 PM Y
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Mood: mm..
Officially no longer addicted to the sappy teen titans movie.
which is kinda sad. haha. i bet you guys think i've gotten soft.
trust me, it's anything but that.
huh. no one has been tagging. thinks* ah well.
not so angsty right now. thanks to tom and waik at least. especially tom for that day.
it's just that i realize well..yeah already mentioned..how much i need to be humbled.
anyway, after that was a lot of humbling.
i mean, seriously, NOTHING went well after that.
mum let me go bball at 9 pm. pretty good right?
then on my way back, some asshole m****rf*****r who had his headlights on me for like how many seconds, tried to move me out of the way by plowing me down!
i mean wtf?! (see all this is only because i'd rather not type out the vulgarity)
i was lucky that i only collided with the sidewalk and escaped with several scars to my leg, but what really pisses me off is not that the guy could have killed me, but more along the lines that he drove off right after i swerved and almost died.
b**t**d.
mm./
she overslept today, which is kinda sad because i really wanted to talk to her over lunch, but i can't really blame her. im not half as busy as she is. =(
can't reveal her name, but i guess if she's reading this and those who know you'd know yep?
i guess there's a lot to complain about, but complaining is a sin.
got lost, various things happened. good thing pam came today to convince me to cool down.
i told her after i revised myself i'd tutor her, cuz she lives near enough to come over..hopefully i can help her out.
mm.
and i decided officially to get back in the hero game despite the risks it has to my life, and my family and friends(or so my family claims anyway.)
because doing the right thing, as someone who i really love as a brother once told me, doing the right thing should be because you want to.
not out of obligation or something else.
i mean i helped some strangers (incidentally, a group of girls, one of them being my neighbour, who's kind of cute. ehhehe. not harumi. lolz.) and it felt good, really. that i knew what i could do to help and i did. there wasn't much thanks involved, but maybe it's not about receiving their admiration or even their friendship.
yeah..
and pearl poked me a lot today. dunno why. she seems pretty happy i guess. im glad.
jean was normal. at least. jean-normal. jean is not normal. haha.
mm. ced couldn't come today, ethan had a swollen toe and couldn;'t come either.sigh.
didn't get to talk much to jen either. or keith.
had ct today. really didn't do anything. aggie kept laughing at me and jean. i have no idea why.
sulwyn was normal today too i guess. although maybe in a good mood cuz she suggested we interrupt adeline's cg and that's something i reallyreally wanted to do, but eventually she went back to the serious sulwyn. tsk.
slacked during service. caught the important points, missed a lot of repeated and non repeated stories of pastor kenny. today's sermon was one of the less interesting ones.
i didn't want to tell her she was so incredibly beautiful today because..
i've been trying to give up on her? for both her and myself.
number one because i keep gazing at her gorgeous figure, i think she might get kind of freaked out. it's not my fault she's so pretty, but i really should have some level of self control.
number two being that she's attached, and I should probably not try anything stupid. come to think of it, maybe it was better she couldn't make it, because i might have said something stupid when caught up in the heat of the moment, and subsequently lose her friendship.
i don't want to lose her at all.
i hate giving up when i don't want to. but i guess it's something i have to accept.
a lesson from so long ago..that you can't force love. i know that better than anyone else my age. they probably couldn't come up with 8 and a half years worth of arguements.
ah well..
life..
sucks.
but at least i have people to go through it with me.
ShadowFighterX