.Sunday, September 16, 2007 ' 10:15 AM Y
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Mood: Sleepy.
To the random guy who just posted on my blog: I don't really care. haha.
and um. screw you? just for good measure. =)
yeah that was pretty mean. =/
okay.
it's like. 10.11 on sunday. im. really. sleepy.
slept in at 1.30 plus yesterday..keith, jean and jen probably slept even later...lolz. so silly. nothing better to do in the the morning. haha. call and talk crap.
well keith at any rate. ;)
well at least until they started talking with their 'spouses.' pang seh. huh.
AHA LOL then why the heck was jean awake?
thats' so mean. ehehehe.
anyway i must have fallen asleep before 2 because when i woke up jean had sent me a message sometime just,,b4 2 (okay that's kinda obvious) asking me to call her, so yep.
yesterdays' talk was a bit..well at least when keith wasn't around, a bit unexpected. i think she'll read this eventually, so it's..well. okay.
im just glad she really told me the truth and it really didn't hurt. much.
i guess it's never easy to just accept but hey, that's life.
besides, even if by some miracle, i probably would make a lousy bf.
i mean look at my previous relationships. seriously.
my first ex is now a psycho lesbian.
and.
okay.
nvm.
i think being a good bf is really a lot more difficult then it seems. i know people who im really close to who have this great relationship, and its 6 months already. i never thought in the beginning that it would work out but i think it did because they both really love and care about each other, and it just comes naturally to them after that.
it's real love. and i know, because i've known all my life.
of course if i turned out to be wrong for some seriously messed up reason it would be sad.
tsk. but i guess it's the kind of relationship you expect will last forever. =)
so how about hers?
im not to say because apart from being an idiot emo, i also can't think about it properly.
but i've known for a long time the right thing to do.
i think her friendship means a lot to me now. i've said so before. i don't want to lose it.
and as long as i know who i should be to her and not who i want to be, then it's okay.
because really, i understand.
I do/.
ShadowFighterX
(i just realized i blogged only 9 hours ago. haha.)