.Thursday, November 22, 2007 ' 11:11 PM Y
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Haiz.
well saw kept licking me today. it's the kind of thing you want at the end of the day. to be cheered up. wasn't exactly planning because of a dog, but still.
tom helped me today. im really lucky i guess. keep forgetting. without him i would pretty lost. i don't honestly know if he could ever say the same about me. maybe i don't do enough, but maybe it's because he doesn't get himself into my situations..then again, it's smarter of him not to. so i guess..well.
so im over her. well. sort of. don't know why it hurt.
i think i never had a right to be hurt, so I shouldn't be..but im so hopeless i guess. being sentimental really never does me any good.
haiz.
i guess i really am just another loser.
then again. im really not appreciated in my time. sort of like a has been. people don't throw me aside, but they forget. they always forget. it sucks.
well. most of them anyway.i should really stop calling people idiots la. it might hurt them more than i think. after all, sometimes when tom tells me to shut up i know he's not serious, but it still gets me somehow.
i still retain that being single sucks. im deprived of a life, it seems.
maybe i can finally get back to my writing. a little angsty story would be nice.
so many times, i can never actually figure out if im lying to myself. if i truly knew what i want.
I don't know anymore.
wish waik had been able to make it today. somehow, i really miss spending time with him too.
who am I kidding. haha. i need a life.
ShadowFighterX
(wonder exactly how concerned ming rui is about..)