.Friday, December 14, 2007 ' 11:11 PM Y
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Hey, world.
mm.
bought issue 10 today of Love Hina. pretty happy, i guess.
well..
went to xian yang's house. brought waik with me.
hope tom's okay. he must be tired..
the others didn't reply.
the kid really pissed me off today. but i guess i can forgive him. he is like that, after all.
confession.
I had, word being
had, a crush on chua wen hui.
and it was pretty bad, because honestly, she was a pretty cute kid when she was younger. there are some memories that remain preserved of xian yangs 8th birthday party, and well. she was there.
i figure i either don't have a lot of time left or i'd like to preserve my memories, so I thought.
'hey, maybe if i knew her a little more, it would be okay.'
guess i was just kidding myself. was pretty moody after the whole wee lin thing..
so..
dunno. after effect.
anyway, i think i hurt her somehow. being. well. me. dumbass, really.
remind you of anyone?
uh huh. yep.
so that was probably my fault. its not like i was going to confess my outmost feelings for her, so..
well i must have screwed up SOMEWHERE, so..
well. here i am.
i don't think i understand her at all. saddening.
but i guess..i sympathise. some ppl know what i mean.
i really hope she wasn't..hurt and angry.
or just playing.
i don't know.
the only thing im worried about is never being able to go back to that house.
will miss it more than nan hua.
still.
can't say.
that i hate her ba.
i shouldn't have tonight..
even though she said she hated me and it struck a nerve.
i don';t hate her.
but i don't get to pity her either, cuz it wouldn't be fair, not just to her, but...
sigh.
so im sorry for that.
and sorry for almost getting mud on your chair.
if you ever read this, the good news is that it's dry, so it can't possibly get on your chair.
and your chair is dusty and even filthier anyway, so you probably can't tell.
but that's not the point.
sorry.
i really am.
haiz.
well.
at least waik..sort of had fun tonight.
the maid was pissed.
we got locked out, our shoes stolen.
but what the hell, i guess.
it was sort of fun.
just hope no one got hurt.
and no one gets into trouble.
goodnight wen hui.;
i hope you find peace.
ShadowFighterX