.Thursday, January 03, 2008 ' 11:26 PM Y
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Sleepy.
um. haven't blogged in a really long time.
here are my reasons why.
1. bball. for some reason, even if I'm not as fit, my reflexes have seriously gotten better. a LOT better. i really surprised myself. it's so shocking im not even embarassed that certain ppl may accuse me off bragging later. =/
2. writing. been serious about it for awhile. SFX trilogy, fanfiction and fictionpress stories...taking a long time but honestly, I'm loving it. it helps me keep my mind off things.
3. Breakdancing, not guitar, is keeping me on my feet also. im really amazed at the reactions people get when you tell them you can breakdance...except i only know 4 moves and 3 of them I can't quite do yet, so I've only got confidence in my baby freeze.
stuff about new year's you can look at pearl's blog. haiz. some stuff there...is missing though. i pretty much made up my mind about how I feel, and I'm just letting it go away now.
schools was okay yesterday. bball and stuff. normal.
today was interesting. not used to ms ang being married yet. i think later some part of me will finally realized what exactly that means and the sec 1 schoolboy will be crushed into smithereens. just before o lvls too. perfect timing.
wrenched my ankle for the hundredth time. it's irritating. have to rest it for a week or so, but at least i'll have an excuse to write...
learnt something about descriptions in writing...they're inspired by real people, so today i studied some people and described them. maybe one day i'll post it up and see whether anyone from new town can recognize them.
saw wee lin today, and exchanged a hi. she looks busy. like, authoratively(sp?) speaking. with the whole orientation camp and all. turns out her whole gang is there. shocking. more reason for me to be so glad i quit.
except i wouldn't be spending time with wee lin, of cuz. but i guess im really mostly over the whole thing..except if im not lying to myself, then mostly is pretty exact.
i've never really cared about her looks before because she always looks amazing to me but somehow, she looks even better now. it's the contact lenses. yeesh. they never have that effect on me. =(
past is past though. haiz. sometimes I still wonder if it would have worked out. then I think about it too much, and it's at really bad timing..
I mean, today Clarissa Lee was at the bookshop. can't believe she's sec 3. she has the maturity of a...well. not a 15 year old. last year, i was fifteen. huh. time flies.
and then yan lin comes out of nowhere.
and osm.
and wee lin.
and somehow as they're all glancing around and ushering small sec 1 kids, for a single moment, i see all of them at the same time.
obviously, the first thought in my mind is 'okay...?'
im not guilty. or maybe im trying to convince myself im not guilty. or crazy. it's not like i manipulated anyone.
..oh, and my novel will be legal when I reach sixteen (cuz of the not suitable for children rating and all, so legally I can't WRITE it. heheh. but I guess by the time it's finished, i'll be sixteen.). which is in two months. oro.
oh, and my ever so friendly neighbour is also a student leader. wait. i think i mentioned that already.
im not arrogant. it's just that i like to think i could get along with everyone if i wanted to. except that i don't always want to, but it always has the wrong result.
and they're all wearing the same student leader t-shirt. hehe. reminds me of camp when i first got the shirt. it was fun, i hate to admit. aww well. and teacher confiscated my cards.
sometimes i still wonder if we could ever be close friends again. talking, at least. haiz.
speaking of student leader and all, syukri owes me a game boy.
and i saw him trying to rally the sec 1's with complete failure. i asked bettina about it and she laughed. guess new towners aren't as cracked up as they used to be. whether i'd like to admit it or not, it looks like ms chan was right...our batch is really making the difference. the gangsters don't rule anymore..
not that i like the new ruling system, but what the hell. =/
some part of me wishes I could go back and make things right.
with one of them. anyone of them.
hell, I'm sixteen this year.
I'm just not a kid anymore....
Night Phantom
I need you like a heart needs a beat.